Many people advised me on certain things.. N i realise i somehow did change here n that..
Health is deteriorating due to my drinking habits.. not a good thing.. frequent gastric attack woke me up somehow n yet, I do not know how to reject drinks...
There's something troubling me very very much that causes all these... I somehow loves the way it feels when i am half drunk, slightly sober and still know what is happening around me. I am able to forget my problems at this stage, for a short period of time..
I used to keep everything to myself.. putting on a strong front.. but i realise, recently, I m opening up myself to people... telling them my stuff that I would never tell anyone.. This is not me.. and i do not like to share my woes with others.. I love my old self.. the strong, and happy me.. not the girl with a lot of problems... I wan my old self back!
Was discussing with CT bout life during our journey back BP... and we came to a conclusion.. I seems to be over-independent! izzit good or bad? I reli dunno. Sometimes I really wish to be like some of my frens.. always ready to rely on others... but.. this is not ME! Arrggghhh.. I hate growing up.. can i turn back time? maybe i should grow up in a different way?
My life seems to be getting nowhere.. this minute I am pretty clear of what I want in life, n I m lost the next... is this what we call LIFE? most probably i am having my down time, my transition period.. n i call it.. 'back to square one!'
Lastly, I hate Pasir Ris!!!!!
2 comments:
everything that's 'over-' is more likely to be bad (with the exception of $$ of course). i'm guessing it's just a passing phase, but even so, being reliant on others is not a sign of weakness and should not be seen as so.
of course, if you could resolve a problem by yourself, you should. if not, it is not a problem to consult your friends, that's what they are there for. even presidents/prime ministers do that, so why not you?
and yes, you should probably cut down on drinking before you get liver cirrhosis. we shall drink celery juice when we go out next time!
on a final note, come jurong. HAHA.
daddy, nah.. no Jurong.. I dun like Jurong.. It's been a long time since i last view my bloggie.. haha.. thanx for the advice.. hmm.. hopefully, everything will be alrite in no time!
No celery juice!!! We can have absinthe! LOL!
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